Digital Manuscript ProjectKrapp's Last Tape / La Dernière Bande
 Just been listening to that stupid bastard I took myself
for thirty years ago, hard to believe I was ever as bad as
God Christ that's all over and down the drain done with anyway. (Pause.)
 The eyes she had! (Broods, realizes he is recording silence,
switches off, broods.  Finally.) Everything there, everything,
all the - (Realizes this is not being recorded, switches on.)
 Everything there, everything on
this lousy earth, all the
light and dark and famine and feasting of...(hesitates
the ages! (In a shout.) Yes! (Pause.) Let that go! Jesus!
 Take his mind off his homework! Jesus! (Pause.  Weary.) Ah well,
maybe he was right. (Pause.) Maybe he was right. (Broods.
 Realizes.  Switches off.  Consults envelope.) Pah! (Crumples
it and throws it away.  Broods.  Switches on.) Nothing to say,
not a squeak. What's a year now?
Chewed Sour [⁁] cuds and hard long [⁁] adamantine hard stools. [⁁] The sour cud and the hard stool. [⁁]
 (Pause.) Revelled in the word spool. (With relish.) Spooool!
 Happiest moment of the
year [⁁] past half million [⁁]. (Pause.) Seventeen copies sold, of
which eleven at
half price a discount trade price to free lending circulating libraries in the beyond the seas. dominions. Getting known. (Pause.) One pound six and some-
thing, eight I have little doubt. (Pause.) Crawled out once
or twice, before the summer was cold. Sat shivering in the park, drowned
in dreams and
wishing I was panting burning to be gone. Not a soul. (Pause.) Last
Violently Vehemently.) Go mad altogether if I don't keep them under. Go mad altogether if I don't. Keep 'em under![0342|001] (Pause.)
[0342|002] Resolutions.[0342|003] (Pause.)[0342|004] Aspirations.
5(Pause.) Scal eded the eyes
out of me reading Effie again, a page a day, with tears again.
Might have be Could have been happy with her,
up there on the Baltic, and the pines, and the dunes. (Pause.)
 Fanny came in a couple of times. Bony old ghost of a whore. Couldn't do
much, but I suppose better than nothing. The last time wasn't
so bad. How do you manage it, she said, at your age
.? Told her
I'd been saving up for her all my life. (Pause.) Went to
Vespers once, like when I was in short trousers. (Pause.  Sings.)
 Now the day is over,
Night is drawing nigh - igh
Shadows - (
fFit e of coughing. Faintly.) - of the evening
Steal across the sky.
(Gasps.) [⁁] Went to sleep and fell off the pew. (Pause.) Sometimes wondered
in the night if a last effort mightn't - (Pause.) Ah empty
your bottle now and get to your bed
?. Finish this puke drivel in the
morning. Or leave it at that. (Pause.) Leave it at that. (Pause.)
 Lie propped up in the dark - and wander.[0377|001] (Pause.) Be again in
the dingle on a Christmas Eve, gathering holly, the red-berried.
 (Pause.) Be again on Croghan on a Sunday morning, in the haze,
collie bitch, stop and listen t to the bells. (Pause.) And so
on. (Pause.) Be again, be again. (Pause.) All that old misery.
 (Pause.) Once wasn't enough for
you me you. (Pause.) Lie down across
her. (Long pause.  He suddenly bends over machine, switches off,
wrenches off tape, throws it away, puts on the other, winds it
forward to the passage he wants, switches on, listens staring
Gosseberries, she said - goo es seberries she said. I said agai hn
I thought it was hopeless and no good going on, and she agreed,
without opening her eyes. (Pause.)I asked her to look at
 I asked her to look at
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Krapp's Last Tape / La Dernière Bande © 2015 Samuel Beckett Digital Manuscript Project.
Editors: Dirk Van Hulle and Vincent Neyt