Samuel Beckett
Digital Manuscript Project
Stirrings Still / Soubresauts


Segment 1

[0001] One night as he sat at ghis table head on hands he saw himself rise and go.
[0002] One night or day.[0003] For when his own light went out he was not left in the dark.
[0004] Light of a kind came then from the one hight window.[0005] Under it still the stool
on which till he could or would no more he used to mount to see the sky.
[0006] Why
he did not crane out to see what lay beneath was perhaps because the window was
not made to open or because he could or would not open it.

Segment 2

[0007] Perhaps he knew only
too well what lay beneath and did not wish to see it again.
[0008] So he would simply
stand there high above the earth and see through the clouded pane the cloudless
[0009] Its faint unchanging light unlike any light he could remember from the days
and nights when day followed hard on night and night on day.
[0010] This outer light
then when his own went out became his only light till it in its turn went out and
left him in the dark.
[0011] Till int in its turn went out.

Segment 3

[0012] One night or day then as he sat at his table head on hands he saw himself rise
and go.
[0013] First rise and stand clinging to the table.[0014] Then sit again.[0015] Then rise
again and stand clinging to the table again.
[0016] Then go.[0017] Start to go.[0018] On unseen feet
start to go.
[0019] So slow that only cghange of place to show he went.[0020] As when he disappeare
only to reappear later at another place.
[0021] Then disappeared again only to reappear
again later at another place again.

Segment 4

[0022] So again and again disappeared again only to reappear
again later at another place again.
[0023] Another place in the place where he sat at his
table head on hands.
[0024] The same place and table as when Darly for example died and left him.[0025] As
when others too in their turn before and since.
[0026] As when others would too in their
turn and leave him till he too in his turn.
[0027] Head on hands half hoping when he dis-
appeared again that he would not reappear again and half fearing that he would not.
[0028] Or merely wondering.[0029] Or merely waiting.[0030] Waiting to see if he would or would not.
[0031] Leave him or not alone again waiting for nothing again.

Segment 5

[0032] Seen always from behind whithersoever he went.[0033] Same hat and coat as of old when he
walked the roads.
[0034] The back roads.[0035] Now as one in a strange place seeking the way out.
[0036] In the dark.[0037] In a strange place blindly in the dark of night or day seeking the way
[0038] A way out.[0039] To the roads.[0040] The back roads.

Segment 6

[0041] A clock afar struck the hours and half-hours.[0042] The same as when among others Darly
once died and left him.
[0043] Strokes now clear as if ecarried by a wind now faint on the
still air.
[0044] Cries afar now faint now clear.[0045] Head on hands half hoping when the hour
struck that the half-hour would not and half fearing that it would not.
[0046] Similarly
when the half-hour struck.
[0047] Similarly when the cries a moment ceased.[0048] Or merely
[0049] Or merely waiting.[0050] Waiting to hear.

Segment 7

[0051] There had been a time he would sometimes lift his head enough to see his hands.
[0052] What of them was to be seen.[0053] One laid on the table and the other on the one.[0054] At frest
after all they did.
[0055] Lift his past head a moment to see his past hands.[0056] Then lay it
back on them to rest it too.
[0057] After all it did.

Segment 8

[0058] The same place as when left day after day for the roads.[0059] The back roads.[0060] Returned
to night after night.
[0061] Paced from wall to wall in the dark.[0062] The then fleeting dark of
[0063] Now as if strange to him seen to rise and go.[0064] Disappear and reappear at anothe
[0065] Disappear again and reappear again at another place again.[0066] Or at the same.

Segment 9

[0067] Nothing to show not the same.[0068] No wall toward which or from.[0069] No table back toward whic
or further from.
[0070] In the same place as when paced from wall to wall all places as the
[0071] Or in another.[0072] Nothing to show not another.[0073] Where never.[0074] Rise and go in the same
place as ever.
[0075] Disappear and reappear in another where never.[0076] Nothing to s ' show
not another where never.
[0077] Nothing but the strokes.[0078] The cries.[0079] The same as ever.

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Date 1
For Barney Rosset
July 1986
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