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[0016] Then go.[0017] Start to go.[0018] Head on hands him rise abs above xxx & start on unseen feet to go.[0019] So slow that
only change of place to show he goes.[0020] As when he disappears only
later to reappear at another place.[0021] Then disappear again only
later to reappear again at yet again another place.[0022] So again &
again disappears only to reappear again at another place.
[0023] Another place in the place where head on hands he sits at
his table.[0024] The same old place and table as when Darley
died long ago.[0025] As when others died before him and
after.[0026] Shall die till he dies.[0027] Hope then when he disappears
that he will not reappear and fear lest he may not.[0028] Or
just wonder if he will or will not. [0028] Without hope
or fear. [0028] Not won wonder.[0029] Wait.[0030] Wait for him to
reappear or not.[0031] Leave him or not alone again. Unwaiting.
Let or leave him alone again or n or not alone again.
[0031] Unwaiting.[0032] Seen always from behind wherever ungoing whithersoever he goes on unseen feet ungoing he goes.[0032] Whitherwardsoever.[0033] Same hat and coat
as always.[0035] As one in a strange place seeking egress.[0036] In the
dark.[0037] Blindly in the dark of night of a in a strange place seeking
egress.[0012] So head on hands one night he he saw himself go.[0017] Start
to go.[0037|001] Blindly In a strange place blindly in the dark of
night seeking egress.[0037|002] [Ever disappearing and reappearing
at another place.]
[0041] x Afar a clock strikes the hours & half hours.[0042] The same clock as when for example Magee once died.[0043] Strokes now
clear as if carried by the wind. Now faint in the in
the still air.[0044] Cries afar now faint now clear.[0045] Half hoping
when the hour strikes comes x that the half hour will may will not and when the half hour strikes & half fearing that half that
it may not.
[0051] There was a time he would lift his head enough to see
his hands.[0054] At rest after all they did.[0054|001] All the harm
they did.[0054|002] The little good.[0055] See a moment those
past hands. Lift it to look at those a moment at upon those past hands.[0053] One clenched resting on the table.
The other open resting on it.[0056] Then sink it
back to rest it too.[0057] After all it did.
[0058] The same place as when they died & left him.
Left day after day for the roads.[0060] Returned to
night after night.[0061] Paced to and fro in the dark and
back & forth. [0063] But strange to
himself the self he
sees rise as said and go.[0063|001] He reappears against
a wall.[0063|002] His hands on the wall as on the table
& his head on his hands.[0063|003] First station so far on
his search for a way out.[0063|004] So far seen.[0063|005] While still thus he
disappears again.
So in this that head on this those hands on those hands so far he goes he is seen to go
he goes. That and No other xxx No call in that head for another head. No call any
more for another head. No call for help any more
for to another head. That on those hands
and no other
So in that head on those hands he
is seen to go. That & no other. No
call any more for another head. No
call for help any more for another
head. That on those hands and
no other.
He reappears again at the same place
as where last disappeared again. Whether
having returned there or remained
there. No clue from the pose. The pose
is always the same whithersoever
seen from behind on unseen feet
ungoing he goes. Whitherwardsoever.
Only change of pose so far when seen
against the wall. So far.
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Editors: Dirk Van Hulle and Vincent Neyt