MS-UoR-2935-3-4

[0001] One night at his table head on hands he sees himself rise
and go.[0013] First rise and stand clinging to the table.[0014] Then sit
again.[0015] Then rise again and stand again clinging to the table
again.[0016] Then go.[0017] Start to go.[0018] Head on hands sees him rise as
said and start u^on unseen feet to go.[0019] So slow that only change
of place to show he goes.[0020] As when he disappears to reappear
later at another place.

[0021] Then disappears again to reappear again
al later at another place again.[0022] So again and again disappears
again to reappear again later at another place again.[0023] Another
place in the place where he sits at his table head on hands.
[0024] The same place and table as when for example Darley once died ^{& left him}.
[0025] As when others ^{a few others a good few some others} before him and since.[0026] As when others ^{some a few some others} will till
he too. ^{dies & leaves him.}[0027] Head on hands ^half hoping ^{half fearing} when he disappears again that ^that he
will ^{may will may will} not reappear again and ^half fearing lest ^that he may ^will not.

[0028] Or merely
wondering. Wondering if he will or not.[0029] Or merely waiting.[0030] Waiting
to see if he will or not.[0031] ^[Let or leave him or not alone again
head on hands[Stet.] unwaiting.^][0032] Seen always from behind whithersoever
on unseen feet ungoing he goes.[0032] Whitherwardsoever.[0033] Same hat and
coat as of old when he walked the roads.[0034] The back roads.[0035] And now
as one in a strange place seeking the way out.[0036] In the dark.[0037] In the
dark in a strange place seeking the way out.[0012] So head on hands at his
table one night he sees himself go.[0017] Start to go.[0037] In a strange place
blindly in the dark of night seeking the way out.[0038] A way out.[0039] To the
roads.[0040] The back roads.

[0041] Afar a clock strikes the hours and half hours.[0042] The same as when
for example McKee ^{among others Darly} once died ^{& left him}.[0043] Strokes now clear as if carried by the
wind. Now fainy^t in the still air.[0044] Cries afar now faint now clear.
[0045] Head on hands half hoping when the hour comes that ^that the half hour
will not and half fearing lest ^that it may ^will not.[0046] Similarly when the half
hour comes.[0047] Similarly when the cries a moment cease.[0048] Or merely wondering.
[0049] Or merely waiting.[0050] Waiting to hear.

[0051] There was a time he would lifet lift his head enough to see his
hands.[0054] At rest after all they did.[0054|001] All the harm they did.[0054|002] The little good.
[0055] Lift it to look a moment upon those past hands.[0055|001] ^{Harmless helpless hands.}[0053] One clenched resting
on the table. The other open resting on it.[0056] Then lower ^sink it back to rest
it too.[0057] After all it did.

[0058] The same place as wg^hen they died and left him. Left day after day
for the roads.[0060] Returned to night after night.[0061] Paced to and fro and back
and forth in the dark.[0063] But ^Now strange to the self he sees rise as said and
go.[0063|001] He reappears again against a wall.[0063|002] His hands on the wall as one
the table and his head on his hands.[0063|003] First station so far on his search
for a way out.[0063|004] So far seen.[0063|005] While still thus he disappears again.
So in his ^that head on his ^those hands ^{so far} he goes. It goes. ^No