MS-UoR-2935-3-5

[0001] One night at his table head on hand he sees himself rise and go.
[0013] First rise and stand clinging to the table.[0014] Then sit again.[0015] Then rise
again and stand clinging to the table again.[0016] Then go.[0017] Start to go.[0018] Head
on hands sees him rise as seen and start on unseen feet to go.[0019] So slow
that only change of place to show he goes.[0020] As when he disappears to re-
appear later at another place.[0021] Then disappears again to reappear again
at another place again.

[0022] So again and again disappears to appear ^reappear later at
another place.[0023] Another place in the place where he sits at his table head
on hands.[0024] The same place and table as when for example Darly once dies and
lefy^t him.[0025] As when others before and since.[0026] As when others will too and leave
him till he too.[0027] Head on hands helf hoping when he disappears again that he
will not reappear again and half fearing that he will not.[0028] Or merely wonder-
ing.[0028] Wondering if he will or not.[0029] Or merely waiting.[0030] Waiting to see if he will
or not.[0031] Leave him or not alone again unwaiting.

[0032] Seen always from behind whithersoever on unseen feet he goes.[0032] Whitherward-
soever.[0033] Same hat and coat as of old when he walked the roads.[0034] The back roads.
[0035] And now as one in a strange place seeking the way out.[0036] In the dark.[0037] In the
dark in a strange place seeking the way out.[0012] So one night at his table head
on hands he sees himself go.[0017] Start to go.[0037] In a strange place blindly in the
dark of night seeking the way out.[0038] A way out.[0039] To the roads.[0040] The back roads.

[0041] A clock afar strike ^ strikes the hours and half hours.[0042] The same as when
Darly among others once died and left him.[0043] Strokes now clear as if carried by
the wind now faint in the still air.[0044] Cries afar now faint now clear.[0045] Head on
hands he^alf hoping when the hours hour strikes ^{hour comes} that the half hour will not and
half fearing that it will not.[0046] Similarly when the he^alf hour strikes. comes.
[0047] Similarly when the cries a moment cease.[0048] Or merely wondering.[0049] Or merely waiting.
[0050] Waiting to hear.

[0051] There was a time when he would lift his head enough to see his hands.
[0054] At rest after all they did.[0054|001] All the harm.[0054|002] All the little good.[0055] Lift it to
look a moment at those past hands.[0055|001] Harmless helpless hands.[0053] One clenched
resting on the table. The other open resting on it.[0056] Then sink it back it
too to rest.[0057] After all it did.

[0058] The same place as when they died and left him. ^{As when} Left day after day for the r
roads.[0059] t^The back roads.[0060] Returned to night after night.[0061] Paced to and fro and back
and forth in the dark.[0063] Now strange to the self he sees rise as seen and go.
[0063|001] Start to go.[0063|002] He reappears again against a wall.[0063|003] His hands on the wall as on
the table and his head on his hands.[0063|004] First station so far on his search for
away out.[0063|005] So far seen.[0063|006] While still thus he disappears again.

So in that head on those hands he is seen to rise and go. That and no
other. No call any more for another head. No call for help any more to
another head. That on those hands and no other.

He reappears again at the same place as when last disappeared again.
Whether having returned there or remained there. No clue from the pose.
The pose is the same whithersoever seen from behind u^on unseen feet ungoing
he goes. Whitherwardsoever. Only cg^hange of pose so far when seen against
a wall. So far.