Samuel Beckett
Digital Manuscript Project
Stirrings Still / Soubresauts


Segment 1

[0001] One night as he sat at his table head on hands he saw himself rise
and go.
[0002] One day or night or day.[0003] For when his own light went out he was not
left in the dark.
[0004] Light of a kind came then from the one window set high
in the wall.
[0005] Under it a still the stolol on which until he could or would no more he
used to mount simply to see the sky.
[0006] Why he did not crane out to see what lay
beneath was because the window would not was not made to op open or because he could or would or not open

Segment 2

[0007] Perhaps he knew only too well what lay beneath and did not wish to see
it again.
[0008] So he would simply stand there hight above the earth on the stool
with his hands flat against the wall and see through the clouded pane the
cloudless sky.
[0009] Its faint unchanging light unlike any lgight he could remember
from the days and nights when day succeeded followed fast on night and night on day.

Segment 3

[0010] This outer light
from without then when his own went out became his only light till it in its turn went out and left
him in the dark.
[0011] Till it in is its turn went out.[0012] One night or day then as he sat
at his table head on hands he saw himself rise and go.
[0013] First rise and stand
clinging to the table.
[0014] Then sit again.[0015] Then rise again and stand clinging to
the table again.
[0016] Then start to go.[0018] On unseen feet to go.[0019] So slow that only
change of place to show he went.

Segment 4

[0020] As when he disappeared only to reappear
later at another place.
[0021] Then disappeared again only to reappear again later
at another place again.
[0022] So again and again disappeared again only to reappear
again later at another place again.
[0023] Another place in the place where he sat
at his table head on hands.
[0024] The same place and table as when Darly for example
died and left him.
[0025] As when others too in their turn before and since.[0026] As when
others would too in their turn and leave him till he too in his turn.

Segment 5

[0027] Head
on hands half hoping when he disappeared again that he would not reappear
again and half fearing that he would not.
[0028] Or merely wondering.[0028] Wondering if
he would or would not.
[0029] Or merely waiting.[0030] Waiting to see if he would or would
[0031] Leave him or not alone again waiting for nothing again.

Segment 6

[0032] Seen always from behind whithersoever he goes he went.[0032] Whitherwardsoever.[0033] Same
hat and coat as of old when he walked the roads.
[0034] The back roads.[0035] And now as
one in sa astrange place seeking the way out.
[0036] In the new dark.[0037] In a strange place blindly
in the new dark of day or night seeking the way out.
[0038] A way out.[0039] To the roads.[0040] The back

Segment 7

[0041] A clock afar struck the hours and half-hours half hours.[0042] The same as when
among others Darly once died and left left him.
[0043] Strokes now clear as if carried
by the wind and now faint ion the still air.
[0044] Cries afar now faint now clear.
[0045] Head on hands half hoping when the hours struck that the half hour would not
and half fearing that it would not.
[0046] Similarly when the half hour struck? struck.
[0047] Similarly when the cries a moment ceased.[0048] Or merely wondering.[0049] Or merely waiting.
[0050] Waiting to hear.

Segment 8

[0051] There had been a time he would rlift his head enough to see his hands.[0052] What was of them to be seen.[0053] One laid
on the table. T and the other laid on it.
[0054] At rest after all what they did. [0055] Lift his Lift
his past head a moment to see his past hands.
[0056] Then lay it back on them to rest
it too.
[0057] After all what it did.

Segment 9

[0058] The same place as when left day after day for the roads.[0059] The back roads.
[0060] Returned to night after night.[0061] Paced from wall to wall in the dark.[0062] The passing fleeting
dark of night.
[0063] Now as if strange to him seen rise and start to go.[0064] Disappear and
reappear ayt another place.
[0065] Disappear again and reappear again at another place
[0066] Or at the same.[0067] Nothing to show not the same.[0068] No wall toward which or from.

Segment 10

[0069] No table back toward which or further from.[0070] In the same place as when paced from
wall to wall all places as the same.
[0071] Or in another.[0072] Nothing to show not another.
[0073] Where never.[0074] Rise and start to go in the same place as ever.[0075] Disappear and re-
appear in another where never.
[0076] Nothing to show not another where never.[0077] Nothing
but the clock.
[0078] The cries.[0079] The same as ever.

Segment 11

[0080] Till so many strokes and cries since he was last disappeared seen that perhaps
he would not be seen again.
[0081] Then so many cries since the clock last struck was last heard Then so many cries since the clock was last heard
that perhaps it would not be heard again.
[0082] Leaving nothing to suggest
when the cries last ceased that
Then such silence since the cries were last heard that perhaps even they would not be heard again.

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Then such silence since the cries were last heard that
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